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Dear Karen,

If you’re reading this it means I actually worked up the courage to mail it, so good for me. You don’t know me very well but if you get me started I have a tendency to go on and on about how hard the writing is for me. But this, this is the hardest thing I’ve ever had to write.

There’s no easy way to say this so I’ll just say it, I met someone. It was an accident, I wasn’t looking for it, it wasn’t on the make, it was a perfect storm. She said one thing, I said another, next thing I knew, I wanted to spend the rest of my life in the middle of that conversation. Now there’s this feeling in my gut she might be the one. She’s completely nuts in a way that makes me smile, highly neurotic with a great deal of maintenance required, she is you, Karen. That’s the good news.

The bad is I don’t know how to be with you right now. And that scares the shit out of me. Because if I’m not with you right now, I have this feeling that we’ll get lost out there. It’s a big, bad world full of twists and turns. And people have a way of blinking and missing the moment. The moment that could have changed everything. I don’t know what’s going on with us, and I can’t tell you why you should waste the leap of faith on the likes of me, but damn you smell good. Like home. And you make excellent coffee. That’s got to count for something right?

Call me.

Unfaithfully yours,

Hank Moody.

Guys, watch it!

• custom clean track frame&fork without shit decals
• Halo Aerotrack Wheels, SB hub, 32H Fixed/Fixed
• Sugino RD-2 Messenger Crank
• Sugino CBB-103 Bottom Bracket
• Sugino Messenger 130mm 46t
• Crank BrothersEgg Beater SL Pedal
• KMC Z510H Chain - 1/8"
• Soma Track Kog - 1/8" 18t
• Halo Track Lockring
• Race Face Ride XC seat post
• Selle Italia SLR TT black
• Race Face Ride XC stem 6° 31,8 mm
• Control Tech Viento CL handlebar 31,8mm
• Vittoria Open Corsa Evo CX II tires
• some blood, heart and soul

The end of the world couldn't tear me away from this.
And if we were the last two people on earth I would be the happiest man.
So drown them all, open the floodgates and drown them all.
They are the cancer and we are the cure.
Let's skip to the last page and see how it ends.
Wake up; promise me you will wake up.
You saved my life and that's all I need.
Just don't leave me now - don't quit on me now.
You are all I have.
The world will never stop unless we make it stop.
The sky will never fall unless we let it fall.
So this is the end.
And the world is ours.

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vncserver und olvwm installieren

sudo apt-get install vnc4server olvwm

vnc server konfigurieren

touch .vnc/xstartup
chmod a+x .vnc/xstartup
vi .vnc/xstartup

#!/bin/sh
# Uncomment the following two lines for normal desktop:
# unset SESSION_MANAGER
# exec /etc/X11/xinit/xinitrc 
[ -x /etc/vnc/xstartup ] && exec /etc/vnc/xstartup
[ -r $HOME/.Xresources ] && xrdb $HOME/.Xresources
xsetroot -solid grey
vncconfig -iconic &
xterm -geometry 80x24+10+10 -ls -title "$VNCDESKTOP Desktop" &
olvwm &

vncserver starten:

vncserver :1 -name 8Bit -depth 8 -geometry 1600x1200

Mit vncclient verbinden: localhost:1

vncviewer localhost:1

vnc server stoppen

vncserver -kill :1

I never thought this could be me
I guess you never do, 'til it's happening to you
like all the fun turns into shame
and all the "could have beens" rearrange
so little time so many crimes, guilt like a chain chokes my will away
redemption never seemed so cruel
and all my gods never seemed so weak

Wake up engage now derailed and enraged
it used to be so easy
get up I'm game now I'm sick and I'm tame counting cost with lost
where is the hope they gave
and don't think that I can't hear you laugh
I used to be a lot like you but now I'm only me
I used to be a lot like you but now I'm only me I'm only me

Drink to pills to shots turns into shock
a habit and a pawn
for every hand goes round the pain gets so damn loud
the hammer hits and I'm down
trust no one
hey why should I, they gave me the poison dressed like life
cheated smacked up and diseased cry to sleep and fight to eat
used to be a pro at this
now I've broken my own wrist
rotten teeth and life unsung you'll forget me when I'm gone

Wake up engage now derailed and enraged
it used to be so easy
get up I'm game now I'm sick and I'm tame counting cost with lost
I used to be a lot like you but now I'm only me
I used to be a lot like you but now I'm only me I'm only me